Tuesday, August 29, 2006

'underneath .. ......, ......... ... ......... ... ... .... . .... ... ...... .. .. ......'

vina.. as oways.. one sentence...
makes mi wonder...
dun guilty ar!
this jus gives mi another prespective of things...

i wanna so hard... but it jus keeps coming back to mi.

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1:28 AM

Monday, August 28, 2006

today i spent my day doin ...
redundent things.
i cld ve been in far east, bugis or some place else shopping,
drinking my afternoon tea. enjoy the tai tai life for once.
but NOooOOo...
i had to be a smart alec to stick my butt into the IMF!
its good for the resume n all!
but my working shift is from 6.30am-6pm lidate lei!

den tml cant buy food....
i wanna buy food lo...
i wan i wan i wan....
aiyo~~
i wanna go~
i never buy food for chalet before lei!!
i wan to go lo~~

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10:48 PM

Sunday, August 27, 2006

I love F.R.I.E.N.D.S

Friends are so much better.
No strings attached.
Enjoying to the fullest.
Dun haf to be overly concern.
I wan friends in my life now.
Nth else...

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4:40 PM

Fel is proud of herself!

why?

1. She went to work today! After MIA for 2 weeks!
$40~ (enluff for my heels!)

2. She made it to Bedok in one piece.
Not becoming a cry baby.

3. She gathered all her COURAGE and learn to skate!
Agar agar can la... with the help of my SHIFU!

4. She make it back to the skate shop in less than half the time she took to go e other side. WooHoO!~ with the help of my SHI FU!

5. She finished the whole MacChicken Student Meal by herself!

6. She managed to pull everyone into playing pool! Therefore, maintaining her aim of pooling session everyday.
Thou lost la... tgt wif kian! not my fault alone k!
bleah~ Mostly my fault la...

7. 6-pack Tiger! Shared tgt wif Aza, Kian and Wei an.
Slurps!~

8. Long chit-chatting session cum watch uncle fish stingray!
How many of u seen a uncle fish a stingray up?
its an accomplishment to watch ok!

9. Managed to go hm without changing out of my wet shorts. thanks to wei an hor!
haha... no hard feelings la!

10. Kian n moi managed to find the RIGHT bus-stop.

11. We went for supper! After tt Mac meal! WooHoo!~
Chicken porridge. hais.. abit un-creative la.. but better than nth!

12. Missed my last 168 bus. But due to my CLEVER-NESS n SMART-NESS,
i managed to bored 25! to amk!~

13. I din freak out when i duno where i was. abit freak la... but not the ultimate freaking type lo.

14. Wanted to cab hm from amk. which wld roughly cost mi $12. Den i saw the green green wordings from the mrt signboard! TaaDaa!~ Last train to Kranji!
Am i lucky or wat!~
I saved $11 !!
Thus saving Kian $12 worth of BCM!~

Im an angel~

Life is good.

:>

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1:22 AM

Friday, August 25, 2006

Pool is definitely in my hobby list now.
Its even better when u can beat ur shifu by TWO rounds!
wHoOhoO!~
had fun pool-ing and giving sai-bian.
but i guess i need to learn to be honest.
haha.. aiya.. rules are meant to be broken la..
once in a while.

after pool session, went back to cwp for Jacks Place.
Combo meal whOo!~
Steak and Chicken.
plus a glass of ice lemon tea.
well i kop Garry's dessert too.
Mango Delight issit?
my impression of Jack Place wasnt good.
But tdy's meal was superb!
So i think tamp Jacks Place not very gd ba.

Anyway.. here's a note for the guys who haf OFFICALLY ended their attachment!
Pls go hm wif mi nx sems! I miss you all! haha.. Spanish soon?

Going to book chalet tmr.
actually quite ge yan la..
book one chalet need more den 5 ppl to go and mus wake up early for them.
wahaha.
But united we stand ya?
Rollerblade n cycling session tmr too!
Life is getting better day by day.

oh.. any plans for Sun? DATE ME!

butterfly fantasy at
11:46 PM

Some random tots...becos fel is bored!

so exams are over. how time flies.
feels like yest when i was crying cos jac wasnt in the same class wif me
n i felt everyone was leaving me.
den came the hk trip. den came the projs. den came the outings. den came the exams.
n now... the holis.
i've learnt quite a no. of stuff these few wks. thanks to this bunch of monkeys from TB55!
erm.. first is ice skate den pool.. now aiming roller blade and cycling.
i used to have this dream of my prince charming teachin mi to cycle de.
tt's y i din learn till now.
i tot he was the one. he jus started teaching me n den he was gone.

thinking back the past week... i realise the importance of exams.
They create a purpose in my life. and now tt they are gone.. im so aimless.
staying up doing nth.
thinking thinking n thinking... abt the impossible.
but luckily everytime i need to wake up, i can jus go friendster n look at tt pic.
n im awake.. sort of..
blah. how m i suppose to go chalet like this huh? when thinking abt it makes mi bla bla bla liao...
jus thinking only lei.. the hardwork put in will b all gone. resolution will dissolve and the hurt will be back.
i miss the connection so much.. how can one connect so deeply n jus leave?
dun get it at all. i noe there is no point thinking.. but if only memories are random too. i can chose wat to remb n wat to forget. ..


okies.. so on a happier note. im gg shopping tml. heels-hunting. clothes hunting. i wanna perm my hair again. dye a new color. create a new look. ok.. the same look la.. but nicer lo.. but.. NO MONEY!! haha...

actually i feel hor... having a hobby is a good thing lei... u see ah lin hor.. singing she very happy. kian on the court very happy. mel have activities she very happy(she likes MANY things). Isky haf pool he very happy. damn nice rite. i mus have a hobby too. sumthing tt i wanna live for. sumthing tt im most happy while doing it. haha...

i can visualise this la... ah lin singing sau ming clap hand for her. haha... kian wanna spike. his gf set the ball to him. isky play pool... his gf sit n see. damn sweet la.. i mus have my own hobby too! den i make my bf play wif mi. wahaha. wat if i chose to play barbie doll? den he play Ken hor? haha...

Tb55: Many many of u are leaving us. but ur spirits will still be wif us. the proudest moment we had sld b the CEM 2nd position rite? i mean we did all of it within 2wks or so? while TB51 started months ahead. n we lost them by a mere 3 marks. the whole TRM! we were 2nd! hehes... well... den there was the many study sessions wif isky, aza,kian,lz,yan.... n the pak tuo study session wif kain. haha.. WE ARE FRIENDS! so.. there were one or two ppl who gets on my nerves too but.. nonetheless... thanks alot for everything! Im looking forward to the many many activities plan for the holis!! wahahah~~

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1:50 AM

Sunday, August 20, 2006

nth to hold me back now.
shi zi ji fang bu sia.
but gotta learn...

exams r here!! 2 paper down! damn tt atm.
damn tt culture.. wat has their culture gotta do wif mi?
okies... jia you for the other 3 papers ba!!

butterfly fantasy at
2:30 PM

Monday, August 14, 2006

i m afterall a normal gal.
doing her normal stuff.

i dun wan to be a character in a novel or a drama.
though exciting...
however i yearn for peace in my life.
close tt door again.
only den will everything b normal.

no more no more... realli no more..
let 2006 end..
i welcome 2007.
=)

butterfly fantasy at
2:52 AM

Thursday, August 10, 2006

i told myself.. no matter wat tues everything will b settled.
but like before, nth was said by u.
idiotic asshole.
u think playing mi very fun?
becos of one sentence u said when i left ur place.
i went looking for u ltr tt nite.
and den wat?
u ignore mi.
great.
im jus lucky ur bro n his friends were there.
den wat?
u wanna sit down n chit chat cos after a freaking mth,
u are still confused.
but but but!!! did u?
nope. nth. the only freaking thing i got out of u was ...
n after tt?
zero.
n taa-daa u r drunk. again. as oways.
so can we tok? NoPeZ!!!!
and so... called u 3 times today.
and wat was ur freaking reply?
'call u ltr.' did u? NoPeZ!!!!! AgAiN!!!!!
even better now.
dun pick up fone.
HAHA.
Booked u 2 mths ago for today.
did u say anything?
Freaking hell no.

and who is tt freaking guy downstairs who keeps riding his bike.
asshole.
wake mi up n i tot it was ...

the only good news: I survived today!!

butterfly fantasy at
1:19 AM

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

To know is to clear everything up so i can move on.
To know will make my mind set.
To know will not make mi wander aimlessly again.
Yups... these are why i wanna noe...

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12:38 PM

Monday, August 07, 2006

can u realli put some things down without an ans?
i mean... there will oways be a lil hope there.
even though, the time is only a short while..
once feelings are input into it,
can i jus forget abt everything?

but after so many posts,
i still duno wat im thinking also..
den y do i wana noe wat's he thinking?
do i need to know wat he thinks den i can think?
y cant i think for myself ar?
y mus it be so complicated?
y does it seem tt sum1 can put their feelings down so quickly?
or simply ignore you.. treating you like an invisible person?
or even fall in love with another gal.
human beings are monsters..

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11:07 AM

Sunday, August 06, 2006

firstly, i mus thank wk!
He helped mi buy 4D(but din win la..) n kept mi company throughout the nite.
2ndly, i mus thank lz! cos he oso kept mi company throughout the nite!
wahaha.. we shall try all flavours if we are not bored by it k!
wanted to go supper but he type wrongly so i tot he still at chinatown!
wo de sheng mian~
ni de wun tun mian~
hais..

So... I tot sumthing would happen at 3:23am.
But nope... nothing...
disappointing actually...
but since i made a promise to myself
i shall stick to it.
i hope i can... even though there are 2 guys who think otherwise already.
ok... plus jac.
but its really no point...
i oso duno wat to say now..
jus tt its realli no point if he doesnt work hard for it too...

tues n wed was our fireworks day - now its gone, i guess...
hoping hopin n its gone.
i can see myself on tues typing 'I din see the fireworks today'

-in the process of being freed-

butterfly fantasy at
1:00 PM

MAY BABY

Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Shy towards opposite sex. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High-spirited.

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12:52 PM

Saturday, August 05, 2006

so i was lied to again...
duno wat to say now too..
was suppose to go out today..
but judging from yest response.
oh well..
can oways go hm n see my favourite bottle.
when i noe wat im thinking den mayb i will blog all abt it..

anws... a good news..
tt guy who is gg to beijing wif mi..
is cute! ok la.. not bad looking can liao
=)

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2:55 PM

Thursday, August 03, 2006

i got a feeling...
I will be lied to again tonite.

butterfly fantasy at
10:51 PM

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

New York New York!!
I tot it was suppose to be in a huge proportion..
but it turn out to b small.
Owe money like mad now.
Isk & Wee Kian.
haha...
Pai sei ar...
fri! i pay u guys back!
Duno y i have been pretty short on cash recently..
Im dead.
Had one game of bowling.
Do u guys noe i haven bowl once even thou i worked at cathay bowl b4??
haha..
anyways...
wee kian!! u ass hole!! no gif mi face~
U striked!
hais...
but thanks for ur 'personal' test ar!
If i dun pass tml... how to face u?
wahaha...
I din realise tt was our class last gathering...
time passed so fast.
Anyways...
lets go halo bar soon!
okeis okies??

time passed quickly when im in a grp.. Thank God... =)

butterfly fantasy at
11:52 PM

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

skipped sch today.
missed one impt atm lect and 2 tuts.
so our cem was 2nd place.
3mks lesser den the 1st class...
hais...
but at least everyone enjoyed the presentation ba.
I know i did.
But modelling is not my cup of tea k!

So yest i missed my trial test for BTT.
I was jus too stunned.
everytime i saw him.. I tot i wld at least get a 'Sorry'...
yep.. he din realli do anyting to me..
but im still scare... i duno y...
well.. i tot ww wld go for the trial so i was there.
but well.. he din turn up.
Reach hm gave him a call
n he said i shouted at him..
is it so diff to understand tt feeling of waiting?
okies... mayb u dun understd at all..

i haf too much to say... but jus dun wanna put in words now...
hope tml will b better..
I noe there is so much more to life..
To name a few..
Jac, Jerri, Cf, ben & gene
Last sat was great. I had fun being 'high' with u guys.
Cf.. come when we go again k?
Den i can haf ur drink. wahaha...
But guys, we sldnt make too much noise nx time.
Thinking abt it now.. its abit pai sei..
haha...
Was surprise when gene made it.
Ben teo... hope u feel better toking abt it tt nite.
Thou i fell alslp, I was listening too k.. hehe..

my class TB55 is a great class..
we have outings almost every week.
U guys keep my mind off things...
even thou for a short period of time..
wee kian is a joker! I luff at u ALL the time.
Mel hates me but i love her still.
Isk is our organiser!
Yi Xian is my les~
okies... cant put everyone down..
but still... thanks!!

Den its those love ones who still ask mi how i am once in a while..
u noe who u r... =)

And then, its my stupid idiotic bro who cant even throw away the stupid fully packed rubbish.
i hate u.

Love...ke yu bu ke qiu..
Xi huan so what? bu xi huan so what?

butterfly fantasy at
6:59 PM